Some photos to upload here.. From the start of 2012 till CNY! :)

Spent the last few hours of 2011 with Annnee! And the first second of 2012 with her as well!

This year, the experience wasn't as good. The path which we chose was quite packed and were jammed in there for quite sometime. Feel so disgusted with others' sweat! The both of us were busy protecting each other as we were surrounded by foreign workers. YUCKS! However, the fireworks were awesome! Handed to her a mini booklet I made for her! hehehe! 

 The CNY fireworks! It was a rainy CNY eve.. The 4 of us too one umbrella each and stand under the rain and strong wind to wait for the fireworks! It was another awesome fireworks!! :D



2012 have been not so good for me.. :(
Think I've been clenching too much of issues and problems which I had in 2011. Seemed like I can't get over friendship problems...
I still remembered what a friend told me.

'It's good to have a friend that can understand your heart, feelings and problems.If there are friends who buey gam, remove them from your life so you won't be the one suffering and suffocating.'

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

To sum up the last quarter of 2011.

It's the last day of the year 2011!

2011 have been quite an eventful, situations which I'm upset of, situations which I'm happy and satisfied of.
2011, I can say it's like a growing up time of my life. I learnt alot, through the internship during March to April, through the different semesters which I've been through.
Friendships is a major issues for me until now for the year. Didn't do well in terms of friendship and I'm kind of upset as well. Well, have to learn to let it be.
Relationship wise.. I went on a Harry Potter date with this friend of mine. Haha. The first and the last I suppose? Well, still not ready for relationship. Single-hood is still the best right? haha! Though, I'm still kind of sad that he left the country already...

So, Resolutions for 2012...

Got a few in mind.

1. Saving to my pot of gold!
2. Doing well and improving in academic wise.
3. To reach my targetted weigh range!
4. Better friendship management.
5. Enjoy my last TEEN year!!

That should be all I can thought of! Good enough!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE!

Kind of feels that I get bored of things very easily like recently.
I can't stand it when there's someone who's not in the position in controlling me or instructing me what to do. I think I felt kind of fustrated and suffocated and I finally made the move of voicing up and giving myself more of the alone time which I need to have and it's what belong to me.

My patience are limited. Somehow, I just felt that you're just taking my companion and presence for granted and also taking advantages of them. Maybe you just didn't realized it or you know it but you thought that I didn't know the motives. I know you're afraid of being alone. But your actions have made me feel that you're just taking advantage of me. I'm happy that I voiced out to you. If not, I might have cause misunderstanding. I hope you understand.

‎'Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.' - The five people you meet in heaven

Just realized I didn't blog during the month of October.
Well, it's November now. Just two more months and we will be done for 2011.

October marks the start of my fourth semester in RP. I'm in Year 2 Sem 2 already. 1 more semester and 1 IIP, I'm done for my poly life. I haven't really plan what if I want to go into a university yet. I need to do some research and set some targets and goals real soon.
Talking about career and all, I'm really interested in the events operation field, it's quite challenging to me. But I'm also interested in pre-school teaching, I just like the environment whereby I can get in contact with toddlers everyday. It's a joy. However, my diploma does not really related to that field.

Recently, I've been doing alot of thinking about future..

2 years ago, on this date, 12-09-2009, I was commissioned as an officer.
My parents were there to witness this event and they put on the grade 6 rank for me. I was elighted. I was very happy. However, everything had changed and more will change.

Anyway, it's Mid-Autumn.
中秋节快乐
I just watched the fireworks at chinese garden. They were awesome!

Being in this organization for the 7th year, I'm starting to ask myself, am I happy?

Sad to say, in the recent years, I'm quite unhappy. I have been planning to leave ever since the incident started and this plan just drag and drag and delay. Maybe the plan shall be executed now.

Quite disappointed of what I heard about yesterday. I know this group are unhappy about the scoldings and punishments which I gave. But I don't feel that what I did was unreasonable. I know I don't have to care about the behavior of this group. I know I shouldn't get affected by the words of this group, because they are immature. I can't say I'm not affected, but I'm not totally affected. I just find that there's a need for me to feedback. It's just too much. I'm not weak, the drops just came out by itself. Somehow, I really wonder this people are being brought up, what environment do they grow up at.

I'm self-conscious, I know I can't fit into a UK size 4 but isn't it too much? I'm not being sensitive at all. But how it end off really makes me feel that it's me. I'm happy of what I'm, I'm trying and doing my part to be perfect. I do see alittle results. The constant questioning to my mother made her feel that I have some problems when I keep asking the same questions. But she knows, I'm fine. Ah, whatever it is. It's hard to be perfect. I can be perfect, but I do need a break from everything.

Last night, I was lying beside my mum. I didn't speak a word, she know where I go after that event. She know something happened. She guess it right without me speaking a word. I really feel that this is amazing. The telepathy which I had with my mum.

Do you know? . . .

(You don't know, nevermind.)

HEYYY! It's September already! How fast?! We're at the last quarter of the year already!

Well, my last paper ended on 26th and my 5 weeks holiday officially starts.

I fall sick immediately when the study break starts. Think I caught a cold the day before when I went out to town after school with friends. The weather was rainy and cold and was in the air-conditioned place for the whole day. Sneezing and stuffy nose are some symptoms already. The very next day, I feel super cold even when the mild wind just blow pass me. I wear my cardigan the whole day at home and feel super cold even I cover myself with my blanket up to my neck. Wanted to go to school for UT clinic, but didn't have enough energy to get myself up and bathe and prepare for that and I gave it a miss. :( Called my mum and told her what's going on, I couldn't find a flu panadol and I just ate the normal one and went to sleep again. Thought I feel much better after I wake up. Yeap, so I told mummy that I don't need to go to the clinic already.

However, the next day, I woke up with swollen eyes, really swell up till my eyes was so tiny. I waited for the swell to get better and wore a fake specs out to my family clinic. Had slight fever and yeap, got all the tablets and syrups and eye drop and back home.

Took me quite awhile to recover from this falling ill thing. It had been really long since I last went to the clinic. hahaha. I like to fall sick as I get lots of care and concerns from mummy and everyone. hahhaha! But from this time, I realize that falling sick is no fun. Especially during the exam period. I'm suppose to spend that week to study and mug for my UT3 and I end up resting and sleeping most of it and only started 3 days before.

Part of the reason for falling sick might be due to the continuous of outings I went. hahaha! Serve me right. Well exams are over already, holiday now and I don't know what to do at home like everyday.. -.-

On 12th August 2011, I turned 19. A year older! At the first second of my 19th, an idiotic guy wished me Happy Birthday on the phone. The first person who called and wished me on the dot through phone for the past 19 years of my life. hahaha! Yeap! This year 19th was a special one. Surprise from friends.

Year 1 Sem 1 classmates, the girls attempted to give me a surprise, but somehow, I have already realize it way before when they asked for my class for this week. Was sitting near the door, and I could hear them clearly. THANK YOU GIRLS for the oreo cheesecake!! I LOVE YOU! <3

Year 1 Sem 2 classmates, the girls surprised me with a Strawberry Cheesecake right after the Year 1 Sem 1 girls celebrated for me. I love them! Thanks Claire for the wallet, Jinmei and Ziying for the bag and watch, Pinky and Sheron for the bagpack! :D

As requested, my birthday was celebrated with my family at night at Xinwang. My treat. An expensive one, and a hole in the pocket. Happy to see that they are all happy and satisfied. Oh, I renewed my membership and was granted a birthday platter and a drink. The drink which they offered was really custom made. It was really, super sour! Everyone of use have a cramp face when we first sip it. Only Mummy can remain normal and calm when she sip in the first sip. WOW! hahaha! Mummy bought a cake for me, and we cut it when we reach home. Have yet to eat the cake as everyone of us were super full.

This is part of my August spent!

On the 6th of August, it's Ann Nee's birthday! Went out with her and had lunch together. Traveled down all the way to Eunos for Vegan Burg, a vegeterian fast food restaurant. It was my treat, as she requested. Ordered Vegan Frank for myself as I wasn't hungry and she ordered Smoked Chicken Burger. Sat there for quite awhile and we left around 5plus. Travel down to Vivo to look for this idiotic guy. He gave us free ice-cream.

Walked around Vivo after that and I bought a book, 'Tuesdays with Morrie'. A very nice book. I'm still reading it. Home after that. :)

On the 9th of August, it was one of the favorite day of mine in the year. I like the national day atmosphere. Went down to Padang with Ann Nee and Jinmei with her Boyfriend. The fireworks was awesome! Manage to squeeze to the crowds after the event. Almost hyperventilate or faint in the crowd. No fresh air and it was really stuffy. Clear off the crowds and we split with Jinmei and her Boyfriend. Both of us walked around Raffles to avoid the Train crowds. Walked from Raffles all the way to Clarke Quay and back to Raffles again and took the train home. Enjoyed myself! I'm looking forward for next year's NDP! :D

(Camera wasn't happy that day.. :( Fireworks picture weren't pretty...)

My 19th!

Happy Birthday, Hui Zhen!