It was at the end of August when I took up this project.

Being the officer in charge for footdrill competition. This means I'm the officer in charge for the whole of september.

September is ending soon.

When I took the project, I was told that this competition is a crucial one as we are left with this to earn a perfect score in order to achieve gold for the CAA award. In between, I was told to take care of the morale of the cadets. Morale versus Perfect score. Which one? It's quite difficult to juggle between this two.

I planned out the teams. I didn't take the advices because believed in what I see. I regretted now that I didn't take the advices which were given to me. Thus, the perfect score target wasn't achieve. No sense of achievement and was quite guilty.

Trainings wise, it was my first time planning, I miss out thinking of the welfare of the cadets and initially planned to have training consecutively for almost everyday. Advice was given and there's only less than a week of training if added together. I take training very seriously. I want progress to be fast. I'm strict and demand for things. Put in efforts and come down every training. Even the extra training. I still rushed down right from school immediately after my exams for trainings. I wasn't late for a single training except for 1 when I have my exam on. I missed having fun after exams with friends and rush back for training. Yet, I gotten negative comments. Quite demoralizing. Despite of feeling not appreciated, I still continue. I'm responsible for this project. I see improvement through the trainings alittle on discipline. I thank all instructors and officers who took their time of to help and train them for the footdrill competition.

I find ourselves very pathetic. Pathetic until when we experienced wet weather, we have no where to train. We only can train in classrooms. This really made the progress to slower down.

I wished that school have bigger grounds for us when meet with wet weather, but I guess it cannot be fulfilled.

The night before competition, I can't sleep despite going through a day of tiring training and reach home late, lying on bed at 12.40mn with tiredness, but I can't really fall into sleep. It's something which I didn't experience ever since my last competition, about 2-3years back.

On the competition day, I was quite ok. Rushing for you guys to test court, be ready and adjust all of your uniforms. Getting you guys to be ready for the first parade and all. First group was sec2s' nursing. Looked at them and my heart was almost thumping out when there's an extra move. Yea, that uneasy feeling.

After seeing sec1s teams, I feel this way. Feeling that it's my responsiblity (which actually is) to make sure that they are up to the standard to go to the competition. Not sending unprepared teams to the competition to waste the judges' and everyone's time. Not to let everyone to see the joke.

Looked at each of our own teams performing, I can only say that the result will reflect on the amount of efforts being put in. If you put in your no limits of efforts, you will sure get the results you want. If you have put in limited amount of effort, then you will get the limited amount of result.

At the end of the day, I was told, let this be the starting point and take today as a lesson learnt. It's right. Let this be a lesson gained. Though the expectations weren't met, but I hope each and everyone had brought home something meaningful which was gained from the lesson today.

Sai cheong was the commander. Despite the wrong direction or commands is given or done, he never surrender to the difficulties and looked down to think of solutions to make sure the team end the whole format. Though you reached the time, but judge decided to give you time to complete because judge believed that you can do it. It's the determination, courage and perseverance which he had but not us. From today onwards, when meet with difficulties, do think about the incident today.

I admit that at first, I started off with high expectations and hopes. However, when the date is nearing, I knew my expectations can't be met. I learnt that the greater you expect or hope, the greater your disappointment. Though at points of time, I don't feel appreciated and don't feel the sense of achievement after the competition, I think this 2 weeks are fruitful. Though at the end of the competition, no one thank me, but I hoped, you all did gained something through the process. I seen some grown alittle, and improved.


To all, You may have lose but you should have gained a beneficial lesson. Competition is once to me to win the glory and pride. But to me now, Competition is not about winning or losing the positions. Is about the process which all of you had been through, grow and excel. If you have decided to give up, you have decided to fail, to lose.



Ps: Post wasn't in order I guess. Broken parts.