But, what's done cannot be undone. I feel that my 100% effort is not there. It's my mindset that's not very right.
When i know the results, wanted to call mummy, but didn't.
Then when i finally called mummy, the moment i heard her voice, i teared.
It's not that i'm sad over my results. Not that i'm not sad of it, it's disappointed.
At that moment, i need a voice have warmth and to encourage me.
Told mummy my results, she said, take it as an experience and try again. Retake the exam again.
In the evening, my aunt called.
Asked about my results. I don't know how to say.
But she also say, nevermind, ask mummy to give money then you go retake again.
It's just that i want my parents to feel proud of me. Like how overjoyed they are when i got back my N level results.
They were proud of me! And that time when my aunt called and asked how's my results, i just say out without any hesitation.
yes.
It's only after i know their results.
You should know that kind of feelings when people younger than you scored better, and they are your cousins.
I've tried not thinking bout it. But it just came in my mind out of some sudden.
What is done cannot be undone. And there's still more to come for me to face.
What can i do is to cherish the last chance and work hard for it.
My expectations may be very high at times.
