It's quite sad to see that our priority lists have changed.
I can say that SJ is no longer in my top priority, and it shouldn't be on my top priority anymore.

I'm busy with schools these days. Trying to score good grades everyday.
Endless of stress since I stepped into Year 2. It's like a cycle everyday.
I will go to school, trying to speak up and contribute in class. Initiating to do worksheet and powerpoint. By the time I reach home, I will be very tired. It's like ahhh, finally I reached home after a long day. I would usually nap. After napping, I will have my short dinner and will start to research and plan how should I write my reflection journal and submit it before 2359. Things have not end after I submitted my RJ. I will go and download the pre-readings and read for the lesson for the next day. I have to understand and do the questions before class the next day. So when the facilitators ask questions, I will be able to answer.

In the past, I'm not like that. I'm not hungry for good grades. But now, I'm always trying to get good grades everyday. It's for my future good.

Anothing thing is that I saw someone who I shouldn't see the other day. Know what's in my mind? Should I go up to say Hi or should I not. In the end, I didn't. I don't know how should I face you already. Like what I've said. The friendship is broken entirely, it can't be fix anymore.

Well, there are many things bothering me for a very long time. I thought I've already put down and move on, but somehow I didn't. I shouldn't be thinking so much. The others can live their life so happily and trouble free about our issues. I should be here, living miserably. This is because, they don't know how am I living daily.

Keeping myself occupied everyday with school work and good friends in Poly.

What are words if they don't really mean then why you said them?