Hello!
Finally i've update ya?
Been busy. With SJ and work.
SJ Camp was over. Things might have happened.
I started to work on friday,4/12/09. Promoting educational toys.
Have to stand for the whole day, from 1-9pm.
Btw, my Computer was down. Due to me, that i accidentally did something to it.
I'm using mummy's laptop now. She have to bring it back to work tmr.
Tmr i've off day also. Heehee, can rest.

Lets talk now.
Working had been ok. Just that i can't adapt to having my dinner alone.
haha.
Today, when i was on my way home by bus, i listen to the music in my phone.
Suddenly i thought of many many things. Really. I recalled the past. I thought of the present. And I think of the future.
Many things rushed through my brain.
Somehow, i did a reflection. And i got emotional. My morale was low.
I don't know if it's correct or not.

Another thing..
Somehow, i felt that i became much more impatient and bad tempered than before.
I don't know why i can't tolerate those small small matters.
And i want things to go my way.
Yes, I was very angry. Angry to the point that i've nothing to say while everything was done turned out to be unsaved and all was back to the normal. I was angry that all my effort was gone. All my time was gone. And i blame, why did i go and did something to my computer. Which resulted me unable to start on something. Ended up doing it at another place.
Can say from camp or before camp till now, my temper is really bad.
Reasons? IDK.

Does being alone is better than being not alone?

I talked to myself while i was on my way to work, i talk to myself when i was working, i talk to myself when i'm having dinner, i talk to myself when i was on my way home.
I want to feel that i'm there.
And i felt that i'm alone and unimportant.

I'll update again(: