Just like what i've told myself after the chinese results i got. It's hard to act strong on the outside. It's really hard. My first line was "So what?!". But it's just to console myself. And i went back to my room, thinking many things. I can do better. The winner is the one who survived in the end and 人比人气死人 is what one of my teacher told me earlier on. Back to thinking of things.. I thought of many things, then i motivated and encouraged myself. Saying the motivational quotes that i've heard before to myself. And i started to aim, and i'm determined.
I always remember this 'If you've decided to quit, you've decided to fail. But if you decides to keep going, when the pain is the worse, then and only have you decided to succeed in both your goal and future.'
Now, i've the pain, i almost decides to quit, but later i decided to continue for the battle, for the last leap. If i quit, my future will be gone and don't say about my goals.
ok. Enough of this.
Been Studying the whole chapter 3 of Geography- Natural Vegetation and writing down my summarize notes into my jotter book since 9pm till now which is about 2.15am. In between have some breaks. Now need some break also. haha.
Came across something on FB. People complaining that because of Sj, her personal program got cancelled. I personally think that is normal? Many of times, I've to cancelled or postpone my personal stuffs because of sj through all my 4years 10months. My point of view. You will always have to sacrifices something in your life. Depends on how you prior your things. If there's no hard work, you won't see the results. If no effort put in, you won't see the results. If your mentality is wrong, you won't see the results. So, just endure through the trainings and you will see your results on 24th. And now i'm thinking if i should go on the 24th when I've exams on 26th.
Another thing that i wish to say out. Why do you have to do such actions when you see me? Act as if you're going to be in a hot soup when you see me? Can i just say, You don't wish to see me and neither do I wish to see you. I'm just asking simple question that who will be coming, why got this and that only. And that action of yours made me feel irritated. If you all are going to say that i see people to do things, go ahead. It's your mindset and whatever things i do, you'll just feel this way and it won't change. The fact, i do things with facts, i don't go bias to people. Except when it's after things end.
[PS/It's saying neither of my close friends.]
That's for now. Continue study.
Planning for Macdonald's breakfast later. haha!
Remember the concave wound that i had since monday/tuesday? Now it heal, no more concave, but leaving a patch of blue-black and it hurts when i touch it.
