More Than Words

2012-01-04T21:29:00.004+08:00

2012 have been not so good for me.. :(
Think I've been clenching too much of issues and problems which I had in 2011. Seemed like I can't get over friendship problems...
I still remembered what a friend told me.

'It's good to have a friend that can understand your heart, feelings and problems.If there are friends who buey gam, remove them from your life so you won't be the one suffering and suffocating.'

2012-01-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2011-12-31T14:39:00.001+08:00

To sum up the last quarter of 2011.

2011-12-31T01:04:00.002+08:00

It's the last day of the year 2011!

2011 have been quite an eventful, situations which I'm upset of, situations which I'm happy and satisfied of.
2011, I can say it's like a growing up time of my life. I learnt alot, through the internship during March to April, through the different semesters which I've been through.
Friendships is a major issues for me until now for the year. Didn't do well in terms of friendship and I'm kind of upset as well. Well, have to learn to let it be.
Relationship wise.. I went on a Harry Potter date with this friend of mine. Haha. The first and the last I suppose? Well, still not ready for relationship. Single-hood is still the best right? haha! Though, I'm still kind of sad that he left the country already...

So, Resolutions for 2012...

Got a few in mind.

Saving to my pot of gold!
Doing well and improving in academic wise.
To reach my targetted weigh range!
Better friendship management.
Enjoy my last TEEN year!!

That should be all I can thought of! Good enough!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVE!

2011-12-03T18:33:00.002+08:00

Kind of feels that I get bored of things very easily like recently.
I can't stand it when there's someone who's not in the position in controlling me or instructing me what to do. I think I felt kind of fustrated and suffocated and I finally made the move of voicing up and giving myself more of the alone time which I need to have and it's what belong to me.

My patience are limited. Somehow, I just felt that you're just taking my companion and presence for granted and also taking advantages of them. Maybe you just didn't realized it or you know it but you thought that I didn't know the motives. I know you're afraid of being alone. But your actions have made me feel that you're just taking advantage of me. I'm happy that I voiced out to you. If not, I might have cause misunderstanding. I hope you understand.

2011-12-01T22:09:00.001+08:00

‎'Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.' - The five people you meet in heaven

2011-11-06T19:58:00.003+08:00

Just realized I didn't blog during the month of October.
Well, it's November now. Just two more months and we will be done for 2011.

October marks the start of my fourth semester in RP. I'm in Year 2 Sem 2 already. 1 more semester and 1 IIP, I'm done for my poly life. I haven't really plan what if I want to go into a university yet. I need to do some research and set some targets and goals real soon.
Talking about career and all, I'm really interested in the events operation field, it's quite challenging to me. But I'm also interested in pre-school teaching, I just like the environment whereby I can get in contact with toddlers everyday. It's a joy. However, my diploma does not really related to that field.

Recently, I've been doing alot of thinking about future..

2011-09-12T21:24:00.001+08:00

2 years ago, on this date, 12-09-2009, I was commissioned as an officer.
My parents were there to witness this event and they put on the grade 6 rank for me. I was elighted. I was very happy. However, everything had changed and more will change.

Anyway, it's Mid-Autumn.
中秋节快乐
I just watched the fireworks at chinese garden. They were awesome!

2011-09-05T12:48:00.004+08:00

Being in this organization for the 7th year, I'm starting to ask myself, am I happy?

Sad to say, in the recent years, I'm quite unhappy. I have been planning to leave ever since the incident started and this plan just drag and drag and delay. Maybe the plan shall be executed now.

Quite disappointed of what I heard about yesterday. I know this group are unhappy about the scoldings and punishments which I gave. But I don't feel that what I did was unreasonable. I know I don't have to care about the behavior of this group. I know I shouldn't get affected by the words of this group, because they are immature. I can't say I'm not affected, but I'm not totally affected. I just find that there's a need for me to feedback. It's just too much. I'm not weak, the drops just came out by itself. Somehow, I really wonder this people are being brought up, what environment do they grow up at.

I'm self-conscious, I know I can't fit into a UK size 4 but isn't it too much? I'm not being sensitive at all. But how it end off really makes me feel that it's me. I'm happy of what I'm, I'm trying and doing my part to be perfect. I do see alittle results. The constant questioning to my mother made her feel that I have some problems when I keep asking the same questions. But she knows, I'm fine. Ah, whatever it is. It's hard to be perfect. I can be perfect, but I do need a break from everything.

Last night, I was lying beside my mum. I didn't speak a word, she know where I go after that event. She know something happened. She guess it right without me speaking a word. I really feel that this is amazing. The telepathy which I had with my mum.

2011-09-04T10:35:00.000+08:00

Do you know? . . .

(You don't know, nevermind.)

2011-09-01T09:59:00.002+08:00

HEYYY! It's September already! How fast?! We're at the last quarter of the year already!

Well, my last paper ended on 26th and my 5 weeks holiday officially starts.

I fall sick immediately when the study break starts. Think I caught a cold the day before when I went out to town after school with friends. The weather was rainy and cold and was in the air-conditioned place for the whole day. Sneezing and stuffy nose are some symptoms already. The very next day, I feel super cold even when the mild wind just blow pass me. I wear my cardigan the whole day at home and feel super cold even I cover myself with my blanket up to my neck. Wanted to go to school for UT clinic, but didn't have enough energy to get myself up and bathe and prepare for that and I gave it a miss. :( Called my mum and told her what's going on, I couldn't find a flu panadol and I just ate the normal one and went to sleep again. Thought I feel much better after I wake up. Yeap, so I told mummy that I don't need to go to the clinic already.

However, the next day, I woke up with swollen eyes, really swell up till my eyes was so tiny. I waited for the swell to get better and wore a fake specs out to my family clinic. Had slight fever and yeap, got all the tablets and syrups and eye drop and back home.

Took me quite awhile to recover from this falling ill thing. It had been really long since I last went to the clinic. hahaha. I like to fall sick as I get lots of care and concerns from mummy and everyone. hahhaha! But from this time, I realize that falling sick is no fun. Especially during the exam period. I'm suppose to spend that week to study and mug for my UT3 and I end up resting and sleeping most of it and only started 3 days before.

Part of the reason for falling sick might be due to the continuous of outings I went. hahaha! Serve me right. Well exams are over already, holiday now and I don't know what to do at home like everyday.. -.-

2011-08-14T13:03:00.002+08:00

On 12th August 2011, I turned 19. A year older! At the first second of my 19th, an idiotic guy wished me Happy Birthday on the phone. The first person who called and wished me on the dot through phone for the past 19 years of my life. hahaha! Yeap! This year 19th was a special one. Surprise from friends.

Year 1 Sem 1 classmates, the girls attempted to give me a surprise, but somehow, I have already realize it way before when they asked for my class for this week. Was sitting near the door, and I could hear them clearly. THANK YOU GIRLS for the oreo cheesecake!! I LOVE YOU! <3

Year 1 Sem 2 classmates, the girls surprised me with a Strawberry Cheesecake right after the Year 1 Sem 1 girls celebrated for me. I love them! Thanks Claire for the wallet, Jinmei and Ziying for the bag and watch, Pinky and Sheron for the bagpack! :D

As requested, my birthday was celebrated with my family at night at Xinwang. My treat. An expensive one, and a hole in the pocket. Happy to see that they are all happy and satisfied. Oh, I renewed my membership and was granted a birthday platter and a drink. The drink which they offered was really custom made. It was really, super sour! Everyone of use have a cramp face when we first sip it. Only Mummy can remain normal and calm when she sip in the first sip. WOW! hahaha! Mummy bought a cake for me, and we cut it when we reach home. Have yet to eat the cake as everyone of us were super full.

2011-08-14T11:25:00.003+08:00

This is part of my August spent!

On the 6th of August, it's Ann Nee's birthday! Went out with her and had lunch together. Traveled down all the way to Eunos for Vegan Burg, a vegeterian fast food restaurant. It was my treat, as she requested. Ordered Vegan Frank for myself as I wasn't hungry and she ordered Smoked Chicken Burger. Sat there for quite awhile and we left around 5plus. Travel down to Vivo to look for this idiotic guy. He gave us free ice-cream.

Walked around Vivo after that and I bought a book, 'Tuesdays with Morrie'. A very nice book. I'm still reading it. Home after that. :)

On the 9th of August, it was one of the favorite day of mine in the year. I like the national day atmosphere. Went down to Padang with Ann Nee and Jinmei with her Boyfriend. The fireworks was awesome! Manage to squeeze to the crowds after the event. Almost hyperventilate or faint in the crowd. No fresh air and it was really stuffy. Clear off the crowds and we split with Jinmei and her Boyfriend. Both of us walked around Raffles to avoid the Train crowds. Walked from Raffles all the way to Clarke Quay and back to Raffles again and took the train home. Enjoyed myself! I'm looking forward for next year's NDP! :D

(Camera wasn't happy that day.. :( Fireworks picture weren't pretty...)

2011-08-12T19:38:00.001+08:00

My 19th!

Happy Birthday, Hui Zhen!

2011-08-11T15:08:00.000+08:00

After all, nothing is going to happen.

It's not the time yet. I guess.

2011-08-09T10:52:00.001+08:00

Happy National Day! ;D

It's one of my favorite day of the year!

2011-08-07T15:29:00.004+08:00

A post which brings up lots of memories. Well, maybe as what the old people says, age which have association with the number 9 isn't a good one. haha. I'm not so superstitious. Well well!

You know what hurts the most? To hear that she booked me earlier cause she know that. Imagine if that happen to you. At some point of time, I thought I've already forgotten and let it be instead of holding onto it so much. But suddenly, again, after what you told me, it reminded me of it again and I'm all filled up with all the thoughts. Oh well~

Can you imagine how sad is it to think that now, even a birthday celebration, we're splitting to celebrate?

Maybe your moves have already show it all that it's the end.

I don't think that there would be photos of celebrations of the three of us again, anymore.

2011-08-01T13:29:00.002+08:00

Hello August! ;)

Seemed like time passes so fast right? Just blink your eyes and 7 months have past for the year 2011. The pace of life was quite fast and at times, it's not easy to catch up.
Let me sum up what have I done for the whole of July now..

July was another UT month. With 2 assignment/reports to be submitted. Was busy with school all the while, doing revisions and rushing for reports. It's one after another and I've owe quite an amount of sleep debt. Been trying quite hard to pay back my sleep debts but not that easy..

I caught 2 movies during the month of July. Transformer and Harry Potter. Both of them are awesome. Because I'm going to watch the last movie of harry potter, I went to watch every movie before watching the last as I have no prior knowledge of harry potter. I can say, after watching all of them, I've enjoyed and kind of like the movie. Though there are times when I slept halfway as I was too tired. Awesome movies!

So it's August now. Just left with the last 2 weeks of Year 2 Semester 1. That's really fast!
My favorite day is coming, National Day! Know why I like National Day? I enjoyed watching the parade and I loved it. What I liked the most is to watch the fireworks live. I'm thinking to catch the fireworks this year. Heard that it's pretty nice. Welllllll~ Shall see how.

2011-07-31T01:20:00.002+08:00

Do you remember how amazing it is when we know about it?

Do you remember the late nights for the past few months?

I really wondered what's wrong with everything.. Really.

It's not easy for me to let it be. It takes time.

Now I really have to slowly switch to this mentality to console myself.

What's meant to be will always find a way.

2011-07-30T15:51:00.006+08:00

You told me it's about the feelings and the way we talked.

Then what about now?

2011-07-03T14:44:00.001+08:00

Exactly 10 days after UT1, UT2 starts.

YES! UT2 starts tomorrow! I have 2 assignments to be done. One is due on the 8th and the other is due on the 12th.

2011-06-29T23:33:00.002+08:00

Friendship is like a fabric. Once it's torn, the bond will never be the same again.

I particularly like this analogy. I have friendship problems for months. It's quite affecting to my mentally. Struggling myself and constantly asking what have I done wrong. Haha. It's quite foolish.

I came out with an analogy to answer the analogy above.

Does the bond even exist? Good question.

It depend on how you mend the bond. If you mend it with a new fabric, the bond won't be there. The bond won't be as close as before because of the distance.

If you use needle and thread to mend the torn, it can pull in the distance nearer. The bond will be pull back by the stitches.

So now, who is the needle and thread?

2011-06-19T21:46:00.002+08:00

My 1 and half week holidays have ended one week ago.. And one week of school is going to end today. Week 8 starts tomorrow. That's how fast time have past. Don't you think that life is like a marathon? Everyday we're running with time and it's already mid-June now, which means, half of the year have past. Wow!

How I spend my holidays? I went for a school workshop for two days, attend a friend's 21st birthday party and realized that our mums and her aunt are secondary school friends, shopped with friends, slack at home and work. That's my holiday.

I went and attend a meeting with Annnee the other day. Went out together after the meeting as she have alot of time to spend until 8pm at night while I have time and I want to shop around instead of staying at home. After shopping and all, took train to Changi Airport T3 and had our dinner there. It's her first time eating Popeyes'. It's definitely nice!

Well, that meet up and shop itself really bring me back to feel the times we had in the past, during the secondary school days. Really. We parted at T3 as she's going to fetch her sister. So I was walking towards the escalator to take train, then suddenly, she walked back and called me. She said we haven't take a picture! YES!! hahaha! And we took a picture before we really parted. And and and, This girl made me shy that day. hahahahaha!

2011-06-12T22:27:00.002+08:00

It had been 6 days. Well, I thought I could let it be.. But somehow, I didn't. I initiated. I hope it won't turn out to be the way I thought off. Why like that? I felt very vague now. Perhaps space have to be given.

2011-05-30T23:20:00.003+08:00

Guess I've misunderstood the relation right from the start. It doesn't seemed to be this way. Need to redo everything in my mind and start everything afresh. Why do I have this cringe feeling? Why do I take it so hard? Why what I thought really came out to be what really happened? Maybe you're not the right one.

2011-05-29T21:47:00.002+08:00

Grandma fell down on Tuesday. Worried.

I can't go back to see her due to UTs.. Was quite worried. I ask mummy the situations and mummy told me alot of things. I felt angry. Typical family problems like the tv shows.. I guess there's always someone like this in the family... Well, enough of that.

Grandma was rather stubborn. She didn't want to take the walking stick which was bought for her last year. Guess old people are the same ya? They just don't want to admit that they need this things to aid them. Suddenly I felt that it's something like a inheritance? Mummy was stubborn too? And I'm very stubborn in someways or rather many ways. Haha!

Well, I was worried. Went back to grandma's house last night to visit her, because I was constantly asking mummy if we can go tonight? I'm not free tomorrow and I can't go back to see grandma.. Yes, so we went back last night just for me to see grandma. But as someone who don't know how to express myself towards feelings, I didn't show much of my care and concern. At least I know that she's fine after seeing her. When I stepped in, she is full of laughters and joking. She knew that I was eating a little and sometimes skipping my meals. So when she saw me drinking water from my bottle, she said me. She said that I don't eat rice, now hungry and keep drinking water. In fact, I was rather thirsty. Haha! And I didn't eat dinner that night, was too tired. But still, I told her that I ate already. :)

I don't know how to be expressive towards my feelings. I'm not that type, you will know if you can read me.

I went for meeting in the morning. Well, it was quite a long one. Aggressive? We've to make the right decision. I may have choose the solutions which many didn't choose. Why I choose so? I felt that the times have changed, we can't always stick with the old protocol. We will have to always move up with time, with all the changes, and think of new strategies to overcome it. That's really what I've always learn in school. If the new strategy would have positive benefits in long run, yes, I would.

When ask if I can commit. My answer, yes, I can commit. But I don't want to commit without a passion. To be frank, my passion is really running low. I don't want to do things for the sake of doing, cause I know I won't be content. I won't be happy afterall.

Judging from yesterday, I guess there's no more chance.

2011-05-22T14:52:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's time now.

I should get back all my focus now...

2011-05-21T14:04:00.001+08:00

On Vesak Day, went out for Astons' for dinner with family!

I always love short dinner with them for some catch up and chatting.

Loves!

2011-05-17T14:37:00.006+08:00

As I have said before, my 7 weeks of internship have ended about 1 month ago.
Here are some photos. Most of them are treats from Boss. I ate good food for the whole of 7 weeks! haha!

Last day, Boss treat us to Kbox!

Last day, Dinner at the famous Fish Head SteamBoat!

Someday during the internship, with them! Bowling~

During outstation. Ice-cream treats with Monopoly deal!

Teochew style.

The very nice Tau sa pia! Put in fridge and it taste better the next day!

Lunch by ourselves, Sakae Sushi buffet!

The very yummy Frog Porridge!

Popeye!

Famous Claypot rice!

And the very tasty Tom yam and Pineapple rice!

The first friday at work!

2011-05-16T15:12:00.001+08:00

This is WeiTing. :D

2011-05-15T15:26:00.003+08:00

Super belated post? HAHA! Photos were taken during the chalet with girls during the last holidays! My only week of holidays then..

2011-05-15T14:39:00.004+08:00

For the past 3 weeks, I have been going out with Weiting after school on friday consecutively.
It first started at week 2 when I accompany her to buy something and we ended up shopping at bugis! She bought lots of loots! Going budget and it's all nice! I bought a new bag which is of the same design of hers. I have yet to use it till now. Waiting for a suitable occasion to start using it.

It's short of a form of distress-ing for me after a tedious week. But it's also really tiring at the end of the day when we reach home. Carrying our laptop and walking around.

So at the end of week 3, we went to Orchard! Went down to Lucky Plaza for Ayam Penyet! It's nice! But after we finish all our foods, we're feeling bloated. We ended up deciding to walk from lucky plaza to Cine then from Cine to Far East and from Far East to Orchard to digest our foods! hahaha! I will want to go there again! And during this trip I bought a new hair clip. I want to go back to that shop again and get the smaller ones!

And yesterday, we went out to orchard again! It's a super last minute decision made. She was feeling down and wanted to go down to far east alone. I was free and asked if she want my company. And rush and prepared, met her at 313. Got our Yami yogurt and walked down to far east! It's my first time trying Yami yogurt and it's damn nice! Trying out more of their other flavours soon! So went to Far East, she bought her lens and change it in the toilet. The moment she wore it, she says it's abit weird.

And we actually walked around basement with her very weird feelings on her eyes. I bought a new pair of shoes! I got the same design but I bought another colour! Again.... -.-
Asked her if she wanted to go back to the shop again, and we went. And it's confirm that she wore the opposite side of her contacts! HAAHAHAHA! Damn embarrassing for her!
It's about 9 plus, and we decided to go home. Before tapping in, she saw someone holding on to Famous Amos cookies! And I asked, you want? hahahaha! And we U-Turn and went to get cookies!

This is the second time I'm purchasing the cookies! 400grams in total! I'm gonna stop for two weeks! Must control spending!

It's always so fun to go out with her. We'll always ended up laughing out loud together.

Ayam Penyet!

This one is nice! It's Gado-Gado!
Some streets snacks after a long shop at bugis! Wo <3 Taimei!

Oh btw, on the eve of mother's day, there's a party at grandma's house. So all of us were back to celebrate mummy's days! Our youngest cousin make this demand to all the cousins! He wanted all of us to stayover and watch the results of the GE together.

We obligate his wish and demands. Only 4 of us stayed. However, that day was a great day! Cousin full-house! Played like mad and sabo-ing together! hahaha! Totally enjoyed that night! The next morning, we went for a morning jog together! :D

2011-05-15T11:17:00.002+08:00

It's quite sad to see that our priority lists have changed.
I can say that SJ is no longer in my top priority, and it shouldn't be on my top priority anymore.

I'm busy with schools these days. Trying to score good grades everyday.
Endless of stress since I stepped into Year 2. It's like a cycle everyday.
I will go to school, trying to speak up and contribute in class. Initiating to do worksheet and powerpoint. By the time I reach home, I will be very tired. It's like ahhh, finally I reached home after a long day. I would usually nap. After napping, I will have my short dinner and will start to research and plan how should I write my reflection journal and submit it before 2359. Things have not end after I submitted my RJ. I will go and download the pre-readings and read for the lesson for the next day. I have to understand and do the questions before class the next day. So when the facilitators ask questions, I will be able to answer.

In the past, I'm not like that. I'm not hungry for good grades. But now, I'm always trying to get good grades everyday. It's for my future good.

Anothing thing is that I saw someone who I shouldn't see the other day. Know what's in my mind? Should I go up to say Hi or should I not. In the end, I didn't. I don't know how should I face you already. Like what I've said. The friendship is broken entirely, it can't be fix anymore.

Well, there are many things bothering me for a very long time. I thought I've already put down and move on, but somehow I didn't. I shouldn't be thinking so much. The others can live their life so happily and trouble free about our issues. I should be here, living miserably. This is because, they don't know how am I living daily.

Keeping myself occupied everyday with school work and good friends in Poly.

What are words if they don't really mean then why you said them?

2011-05-14T11:56:00.015+08:00

Last day of internship.

Boss's wife made chocolate chip muffin and agar agar for us!

During the last week of internship...

2011-05-02T14:18:00.002+08:00

Day 33, 15/4/2011
Today is the last day of our internship. We had our last review with Mr Woon and Mr Yeo. Everyone of us shared our own learning points and point of view.
Lunch was treated by Mr Woon at Pizza Hut. (Y)
Dinner was treated by Mr Yeo at the popular fish head steamboat. And afterwhich, boss treated us to KBox at Marina Square.

That's the end of my internship..

Day 32, 14/4/2011
Went out station with Min Guang and Anson at Woodlands Industrial park. It was quite successful as we completed all the survey forms which we’ve with us. There was one potential one, where by the lady was doing a project with LTA and need some LED Lightings. She said that she will call Mr Yeo to understand and know more about their product.

Day 31, 13/4/2011
Went outstation with Daryl and Limin at Jurong International Business Park. It was again an unsuccessful trip. All the offices and buildings there are controlled by security guards. We couldn’t just walk in just like that.

Day 30, 12/4/2011
Limin and I was staying in the office doing cold-callings and collection of data-base while the rest of the guys are doing outstation. Faced the usual problems such as rejections.

Day 29, 11/4/2011
Today, the whole team went outstation at Changi Business Park as Anson was on leave for medical appointment. The day was quite unsuccessful as the security in there was rather tight and we’re unable to break through the security guards. We decided to plan for the venue for outstation for the following day.

Day 29, 8/4/2011
We had a review section with Mr Yeo and discussed about which area we should target for the next week.

Day 28, 7/4/2011
Stayed indoor together with Daryl while the rest of the team went out for outstation.
Did cold-calling and sorting out of the survey forms. Cold-calling was like the usual result, whereby, the companies’ receptionists just entertain you because of the ‘promised’ short survey. That’s the feeling which I’ve got when hearing the tone of reply from the other party.

Day 27, 6/4/2011
Today was outstation again with Daryl and Anson while Limin and Min Guang are staying indoor to do the usual routine of cold-calling and blasting of emails. Today, we went to Tai Seng Industrial area. When we reached there, we then realize that it’s really widespread and we were really lost of where to go.
We then decided to reccee around the area before deciding to change a target area. So after lunch, we decided to change place to conduct survey. We decided to go to Singpost at Paya Lebar. We went and started off with the highest level, having the mindset that as long as there’s a receptionist there, we will go in for a survey.
We happened to chance upon this healthcare product company; the receptionist was nice and did really entertained us. At the end, she expressed her interest about our One Touch product and praise us for our good presentation. We’re planning to send them an email by this Friday and do a follow-up subsequently.

Day 26, 5/4/2011
Today was going outstation with Min Guang and Anson while Limin and Daryl are staying indoor to do the cold-callings and helping Chong to do some jobs. Outstation was kind of unsuccessful. Went around, but was rejected as the gatekeepers are strong.

Day 25, 4/4/2011
Today was staying indoor together with Anson while the rest of the team is doing outstation. We did the usual routine, cold-calling and collection of data-base. Cold-calling today wasn’t that successful. To my surprise, there’re none successful cold-calls. Was rejected all along and reasons which the other party gave was that they are too busy, there isn’t any meeting room in the office, the person in-charge are not around in the office and lastly, call back later.

Day 24, 1/4/2011
We had a review section with Mr Yeo and Mr Woon.

Day 23, 31/3/2011
Went outdoor today with Daryl and Min Guang while Limin and Anson are staying indoor. We tackled the whole China Square and got a few successful surveys. One insurance company’s receptionist actually gave us a compliment by giving us the direct contact to the HR manager.
We also chance upon and met the CEO of Cerebos. We actually went to the wrong floor and he actually direct us to the correct floor to the receptionist.

Day 22, 30/3/2011
Stay indoor for today with Min Guang while the rest of the team went for outdoor. Staying indoor is like the usual practice of mass cold-callings.

Day 21, 29/3/2011
Stay indoor for today with Daryl and Limin while Anson and Min Guang are doing outdoor. We did the usual practice of mass collection of data-base and cold-callings.

Day 20, 28/3/2011
Today due to Mr Chong was on leave and Mr Yeo has a seminar, the whole team is doing outdoor together.
We went back to lavender and went back to Textile Centre and Sultan Plaza to continue our survey. We have gotten a few successful surveys done. We even went in to a lighting company, without knowing that they are also doing lightings. The manager is nice enough to entertain us and provide us with a little bit of information of their company. They are actually dealing with LED tubs too. Mainly on solar panel and RP was their customer too.
After lunch, we decided to go over to Clarke Quay.

2011-04-24T14:02:00.001+08:00

Been quite sometime since I've posted here.
My internship have ended, and school have started. It's the start of my year 2 life. It's definitely stressful after tasting it for one week. I've to strive and get motivated!

I'll continue to post and update about my internship here. :D

2011-04-10T12:55:00.000+08:00

我不是一个好朋友。不要和我做朋友。
选择离开因为留着已没有意义了。

I found out how insignificant I actually am to the two of you.
Oh well..

2011-03-25T16:22:00.003+08:00

Day 19 of Internship / Attachment

It’s review today. Discussed with boss about the problems we faced. After the review session, we felt that we should be more confident and shouldn’t fear when we speak during cold-calling or outdoor. We should portray the confident image so as to gain the trust from the other party and make them have the impression that we do not fear them.

Day 18 of Internship / Attachment

Daryl and I were doing outstation today while Limin and Min Guang was doing indoor for the usual practice such as cold-calling and email blasting. We met at Lavender as we’re targeting at the offices in Textile Center, Keypoint and Concourse. Started off with Keypoint, however, we gave it a miss because of the security station at the lobby.

We proceeded to Sultan Plaza; however, there aren’t any suitable offices, so we proceed to Textile Center. Got 1 successful survey done, was rejected by one shipping company. We continued to several offices but were also rejected.

Decided to go to novena after lunch, which was a wrong decision. We only have one successful survey done with the other party which is at Goldhill Plaza. After facing much rejection, we felt kind of demoralized and decided to go back to the office to discuss with the other 2 team member for the review the next day.

Day 17 of Internship / Attachment

As we split, so Daryl and I are staying indoor to do cold-calling while Limin and Min Guang are doing outdoor survey with companies. During cold-calling, and learn that in order to convince the other party to do our survey, we have to say that we’re interns doing market research for the new product of our company.

It’s not easy to ask the other party for an appointment. Somehow, they may feel cheated because, in the first place, we’re telling them that we’re conducting a survey then asking for an appointment will cause some sensitive issues.

I came across with this guy, he actually joked with me when I did cold-calling with him. He’s quite humorous and actually breaks the ice or the tense or serious situation.

2011-03-23T09:32:00.002+08:00

Day 16 of Internship / Attachment

Outstation today. Meet up with Limin and Daryl in the morning at cityhall. But all were late. I'm the latest.. So went to eat some toast and coffee first. Then we started out at Penisula Plaza.

Went to the highest floor and walked around. Went in to several offices to do the survey. I remembered one law firm. That lady told us off. And there's this building with all the big companies. Also, we went to this plaza, quite ulu one. Then we saw this 'Ah Long' company. Its shop name is actually licensed money lender. hahaha! It's quite scary when we walked past, cause one of them with tatto all over is actually training with a dumb bell behind the door. haha!

Ok, day ended after that plaza. Sat outside SOTA and chatted awhile before taking train back.
Pro ah? Walked from City hall to Douby Guat. HAHA!

Day 15 of Internship / Attachment

It's monday! Monday's blue. I got swollen eyes from the previous day..
Initial plan is to go for a reccee around the shophouses, so that we can familiarise with the places. But somehow, the plan was cancelled. Did cold-calling and data base collection in the office.
And Lunch is on boss again! Frog Porridge!! Yumm Yumm!

We draw lots to decide who to stay or go out on wednesday. I'm indoor. So will do cold-callings~

Day 14 of Internship / Attachment

Collect data-base in the morning before our review session with boss. During the review session, we feedback to boss about the things we have discussed with mentor the previous day. This is when we learnt that our main objective is not to do sales, but to make an appointment with them at the end of the survey. We have also discussed in splitting into groups of 2 and 3. So that we can take turns to go out for outstations and indoor. Everyone will have the chance to go out.
After lunch, we came back and helped Chong to package the circuit board.

Day 13 of Internship / Attachment

We did the usual practice during the first half of the day. Such as cold-calling and collection of data-base. We went outstation after lunch at city hall area. Met with mentor and did some discussion. Learnt that there are actually better approaches when asking people to do survey, such as using token to lure them for the survey. So after the meeting, we decided to go down to Suntec City to test out if the new approach works. However, we were stopped by the security because we didn’t book any appointment with them.

Day 12 of Internship / Attachment

Today we basically did cold-calling and data-base collection. During the first half of the day, we collected data base. Learnt that the range is wide and need to segment to the specific ones like those offices with meeting rooms who will need the system. Cold-call at the later part of the day. There aren’t much successful calls. Other party will reject.

Day 11 of Internship / Attachment

Did packaging of the stocks for the day. Pack the circuit board into the original packaging for the buyers. Then continued collecting data base by using the internet.

Day 10 of Internship / Attachment

We touched up with the brochures which we are told to edit some parts during the review session at Osram last Friday. Following by collection of data base for this week. Target for this week is to collect 150 data and start cold-calling.

2011-03-15T19:51:00.001+08:00

Why angers was here when I heard that?
The world is just so unfair. Nothing is fair though.

2011-03-15T19:46:00.001+08:00

Today is ah ma's 9th death anniversary.
It had been 9 years. I still clearly remember on that very fateful day when the doctor pronounced her dead. With all the machines and equipments pushed to the bed to rescue. Myyyy..
10:10am.

2011-03-11T16:29:00.002+08:00

Day 9 of Internship / Attachment

Went to office early today with Min guang. Daryl was late.
Sum up our presentation slides and went to o_ _ _ _ for our review presentation.
After that was lunch then back to office and touch up the brochure and email.

Left work 1 hour later today. Helped Mr chong to unpack the things. 500 of them. haha! 5 of us split up. We're cheap labour man!

Day 8 of Internship / Attachment

Stayed in office for the whole day.. Cold-calling the remaining companies then end.
Nothing much in the office. Just stayed and did nothing for the rest of the day.
Lunch was on boss again. Claypot frog poriddge at Ang Mo Kio. (Y)

2011-03-10T16:07:00.002+08:00

21 more days, March will be over.
Exactly 3 more weeks.
I don't think the suggested 'March Outing / Meet up' won't be able to be fulfilled.

Huizhen! Don't think anymore! Keep yourself occupied with something more meaningful than thinking about all these. :D

(feel like a psychotic who is speaking to herself. but deep in me, I'm always struggling with myself. telling myself not to care anymore. but I simply can't.. )

2011-03-09T11:36:00.005+08:00

Day 7 of Internship / Attachment

Suay day! Wore the other lower heels. When I was reaching chinese garden, the front part of the heels open! No choice, have to walk back home. I'm late already! Quickly changed and mummy drove me to lakeside station.. This have caused me to be late for about 5mins for work.....

Same thing. Cold-call in the morning.. Started much earlier at CBD area today.
It rained heavily shortly after we reached there.. Shelter at URA and waited for the rain to be smaller.. Then we walked around at the streets and went in to several offices for survey..

At the end of the day, our legs felt so sore.. Work life is not easy!

Day 6 of Internship / Attachment

Did cold-calling in the morning. Same thing, lunch was on boss again. Western food for lunch. And we went out to CBD area and walk around.. Sort of a Reccee..
Wore heels and walked around for the whole afternoon. Leg was feeling really sore.. Intend to ask mummy to fetch me at chinese garden, but think shouldn't trouble her.. So I took bus home.. Took 333 when I will walk a shorter distance..

Mummy waited for me at the bus stop and brought my slipper down. Loves!! The moment I feel the ground, I felt so shiok~ haha!

Day 5 of Internship / Attachment

Started with cold-calling today. Did my first ever cold-call. Quite nervous at first but slowly got used to it.. I got scolded by one lady when I called.. Quite demoralizing ya.... I was about to ask for email, then she said 'eh, I've to work one hor'... :((

I will be the only female in the office for this whole week.. Limin was oversea till next week.

Day 4 of Internship / Attachment

A full day spent in office. Did designs for brochures for the one touch system.. Lunch was on boss again.. It's Tom Yam soup and Pineapple Fried Rice at a super nice coffee shop. Must go next time, but the opening hour is short..

Day 3 of Internship / Attachment

Did data collection by using greenbook at the earlier part of the day. I was basically collating the data being collected by the two guys. After lunch was doing on brochures.

2011-03-02T22:14:00.002+08:00

Day 2 of Internship / Attachment

Today is the second day of the internship. Met the rest at Toa Payoh today and waited with Mr Chong for Boss to arrive.
Boss drive us to a coffeeshop near the place where we'll be having our lighting training today..
So breakfast, it's on boss again. Feel kind of bad though.
Roti prata, jiap tow lo ti with kaya and butter, and teh bing or kopi bing for the 5 of us.
NICE!
The jiap tow lo ti was superb. hahaha! Just that the butter melted and it kept dripping.
You will need a plate to support if you don't want to mess up the place or yourself.

2011-03-01T21:49:00.001+08:00

An interesting facts which I've learn today..

After work today, went to Toa Payoh for KOI with them.
This is when I know that the opposite of KOI is actually the chinese character, 豆.

Interesting right?

2011-03-01T21:43:00.003+08:00

Day 1 of Internship / Attachment

So today was the first day of the internship..
Today I found out that it took me approximately 1 hour 30 mins to reach my work place/office.
So today was much of exploring and understanding..
Brainstorm about the new questionnaires on survey and interviews.

2011-02-28T21:21:00.003+08:00

I think I'm too free today.. I went to think of things and plans again..

I should just use a hammer to hammer away all the thoughts! I don't think the thoughts would happen anyway.

2011-02-27T10:05:00.003+08:00

Good Morning!
Anyway, I will update about the chalet post abit later. Maybe tomorrow?

Well, I've been doubting my capability and ability for that coming internship.
School have high expectations and I still don't know why I was chosen for the internship when I thought that I flunked the interview by the school facilitators.
The place for the internship is very far for me.

I think I should stop having negative thoughts.
' Your sacrifice today will benefit you more tomorrow.'

2011-02-26T09:45:00.000+08:00

I'm back from chalet! :D

2011-02-20T11:59:00.002+08:00

Bangles! I bought them and I love this photo I took.

2011-02-20T03:47:00.001+08:00

'Let's make it possible, ok?'
This made my heart skip a beat.

2011-02-19T16:58:00.004+08:00

Was talking to Mummy just now. Told her things, and as usual, she was the best listening ears even when I need one. Though I know that she will always side me even when I may be at fault sometime. She understands me the best.
Finally voice out after a few days of keeping to to myself. Feeling less blue now..

Maybe the problem lies with me, and I think you all will agree.. I'm sensitive, demanding, expecting alot, selfish, childish and maybe jealous.

Well, after I got back from the talk with Mummy, I saw the pop up chat.

I didn't say anything about the meeting with secondary school stuffs. Well, planning since December, then? Ok, I've nothing to say, cause what I suggested was during January.. December WINS!

I just don't understand, even if we are getting older, getting busier why can't we do anything? Accomodating is one way. I've been grumbling, why I can make time for you all but you all can't make time for me? I was even thinking, 没有心就说啦. Well, take it for example, my girls from girls' dorm can even make time and accomodate each other for the chalet despite of the various commitments which each of the 6 of us have. We either sacrifices fun and cherish every moment which we could have together. Why can't we do the same? More over we're half the number.
I don't understand, yet I'm trying to be understanding.
How ironic?

2011-02-18T23:20:00.002+08:00

It was New media communication UT3 today..
I think I flunked it.. Spent so much time on the codings but I still managed to complete the UT..

Meet up WeiTing after UT3 and we went to Orchard.
It's my first time going out with her. First stop was Far East to eat the 版面. It was nice and tasty though it was alittle expensive.. After which, we went to shop around far east. She bought accessories.. Then we walked over to Cine.. So we went Cine and last minute decided to watch movie. Caught No String Attached. Abit awkward during the front part when there was intimate scenes.. OHYA! It was my first M18 movie! haha!

So movie was ok for me.. Like normal, nothing really special as plot can be sort of predicted.. After movie was around 6plus already.. We walked to 313 and found a place to sit down and chat.. Blue Mountain Cafe. Affordable place to dine in and chill.. I'll definitely visit that place again. Ordered drinks and a basket of fries and chatted.. After that we went home..

I bought bangles! HAHA! Cheap and nice! Shall shop there again..

Well, now it's time to chiong and be prepared for the last UT, Entrepreneurship! HEHE!
After that will be chalet with my girls from girls' dorm and then it will be the internship. AWWW. Still having some fears in me for that internship..
All the best..

Well, I actually intend to study the first three problems for entrepreneurship, but somehow, I'm superly tired now.. Shall spend my whole of tomorrow to study and mug! Must ACE!!

2011-02-17T20:51:00.001+08:00

Today is the last day of CNY. It's 元宵节 today, also know as 东方情人节. :D
Will update more.

2011-02-17T20:19:00.002+08:00

GREAT!
This is call friendship.
It's your birthday coming soon, I decided to plan a dinner or outing together. You got assignment, so cancelled the celebration 2 days before the meeting date. I was ultraly disappointed. Because I pre-planned of the place to go and stuffs in my mind..
Nevermind then.. You guys won't know if I'm disappointed or not, because I didn't tell anything.

There's more in my heart or mind... Shall keep them to myself.
Conclusion: I feel like all the things I did was taken for granted and not being appreciated. I may be sensitive, but I'm trying to be understanding and underdetermine the things I saw too. I hope it will be a strong underdetermination.

2011-02-10T16:54:00.021+08:00

Hello everyone! This is what actually happened all this while when I didn't blog..

Quite busy though. From November till now.. Made all photos for the events into collage as if I were to post one by one, I don't know when this post will be done.

8 January 2011

It's 姑姑's Birthday. Brother and I fork out to buy dinner from zi char and KFC home since 姑姑 still have her cast on.

DIY a cake for her also.

1 January 2011
It's Mummy's birthday! Bought a cake home after countdown to surprise her.
Daddy and Mummy came home after me as they went countdown at a pub with Dad's friends..
:D
It's counting day that day too.
Treat them Aston at Beach Road that night. From my own pocket. haha!
Pocket is with a big big hole now, currently..

Yeap, It's 2011.
Dec 31, Met with the girls to go countdown at marina there as I've suggested.
Nice and memorable.
Counted as my first countdown without my parents.
The fireworks was awesome! The atmosphere there is totally different! Just that we have to squeeze with so many people and get stuck for minutes.
Awesome fireworks! 27 December 2010
It's the first Girls' Dorm Outing at Marina Barrage.
Miao and Sky were whining when finding an area to settle down due to the road we walked up and it rained earlier too. Mudding field.

Brought our potluck. I prepared quail eggs, mini hotdogs and smileys. haha!
Miao brought Sandwiches and Darika brought Quail IDK what one. It's nice!

We played monopoly deal and stuffs. Chill at a water area at night. And trained home.

22 December 2010
It's Christmas met up. Another outing which I suggested?
Ok.. Meet up with the ladies to Plaza Sing.
A very short moment for the 3 of us only as Chuthing have to go off.
Annnee was late for approimately 1 hour.

Settle down at XinWang HK Cafe. Exchange christmas gifts. Annnee, still waiting for yours.
I suggested that for this year's Christmas Gift, we should do something special as we've been exchanging christmas gift for the past 5 years by buying things within the budget.
This year, there's no budget. Theme is DIY as I suggested.

I baked cookies and mini-cupcakes for them. Spent the whole of previous day baking and moulding the snowman in shape by myself.

Chuthing left early, and Annnee and Me caught Rapuzel. It's an AWESOME movie! I just can't stop AWWWWW-ing through the movie. It's sweet!
MRT home with her and her classmate which we met halfway.
As expected, I was 'outcasted'. I just can't get into their topics.

12 December 2010
It's Basic and Advance NCO course Passing out parade.
Met with Annnee and went HQ together.
Was supporting contigent commander.. So long since I commanded. HAHA!

I loved the marching rthym.. It's fun yet tiring.
Bravo is the first platoon I took and the BNCO course is the first course where I help as an instructor/officer. Great experience.

Went to Sanjiu house after everything. (I left after that without staying for meeting?)
It's his birthday party I suppose. haha!
11 December 2010
It's Dad's birthday. I went out to JP in the evening to get a present for me.. Last minute I know, but I've got a really tight schedule..

So bought swensen ice-cream back to celebrate. Bought a crocodile belt set for Dad.
He invited a few of his working friend home for a small dinner.
Ohya, in the afternoon, we went to Akira's warehouse sales. Dad bought himself a new camera. That model which I've been eyeing for a long time. HAH!
26-29 Novemeber 2010
It's NCO camp. 4D3N.
Booked in late on the 26th due to school..
So met chuthing at the gate at Clementitown. Walked in together. It's the first time I see my platoon. Bravo.
So we went to do and set up our games and stuffs.
Slept at the hall.

On the 27th, it's the hike. The main event.
Good experience.

On the 28th, it's games and campfire night. Left after campfire. Quite reluctant to leave actually, but I've UT and school the next day..

13-15 November 2010
It's JVSJAB Annua Camp. FUN!
5-7 November 2010
First time to Genting!
FUN! I actually missed Genting when I'm back. Awww..

2011-02-05T15:06:00.000+08:00

Happy 兔 Year!

2011-01-06T10:10:00.001+08:00

GOALS:

G-ather info
O-rganize
A-ction
L-ook back at your plan
S-et new goals

2011-01-01T22:59:00.001+08:00

Happy 2011!

Happy Birthday Mummy!

2010-12-20T09:28:00.001+08:00

My dear brother. Results are set already. So DON'T DWELL! Choose the route which you want to take, and will benefit you the most. Make sure that you don't have any regrets and work hard for your next goal! I'm sure you can do it as long as you don't give up. Perserve and work hard to your next goal. Perhaps, the longer route will give you something better. Get well soon :D Smilessss :D

2010-12-18T09:39:00.002+08:00

3 days ago, I wasn't feeling good.
He realized that. He asked. I said nothing.
He said when a girl said that nothing happened, something actually happened.
I'm glad he's there.

2010-12-16T15:40:00.002+08:00

Hiya! Been quite sometime since I blogged.
I'm busy. Rarrrr.

Been going to camps for the whole weekends of my november.
Glad all ended, and I survived through the exams!
Was quite shagged.

Holidays is just one day away. But sad thing is once school reopens, it's also the start UT2.
Mugging time for UT2 instead of holiday.

HA.. Will update again soon.

2010-11-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

Eventful November is coming to an end.

Lets see how eventful my novemeber is.
5-7th Novemeber, It was my 'get away trip' to Genting.
First time to genting. It's a great experience and I enjoyed myself there.
Suppose to have NCO course theory phase camp during 5-8 Novemeber, but I was excused due to my planned oversea trip.

13-15 November, It was JVSJAB camp'10.
Went for the first 2 days as I've school the next day.
It's a good camp, though some things have corked up. Remembered day 1 was generally on games, hike, flying your own diy kite, games, field cooking, confident night walk.
Day 2 was generally game also. Did the 'Ultimate Challenge' during PT where cadets have a tiny bit of bonding by encouraging each other to endure during the process. There's still more to be improved. Cheers singing. Games. I liked day 2 game. The slides, the war game. And it was the Halloween Theme Campfire at night that day. Campfire was almost being cancel due to the rain. But thank god that the sky didn't cry anymore. Campfire was smooth and good. Spider web was good too. And Linger! I won't forgot. Went home after campfire.

26-29 November, It was NCO Camp phase.
Book in at night that day due to exam and school with chuthing. It's my first time joining nco course as an instructor. Didn't have a positive mindset in the first place, but after the camp, it actually motivated me to go further again. Bravo'10 was great. Rememebered, Day 1 night, basic was playing the team building game which chuthing and myself planned. It turned out well and good. Then it was platoon interaction if I'm not wrong. So debrief for first day and slept at 2plus am in the hall.
Day 2 was hike. Hike was the main program for day 2. So we set off at 11am to the first venue where all of us will have to pass through the railway track then to King Albert Park where I slipped and fell for thrice, then stop at the malaysia railway for lunch then out to Bukit timah hill where we hiked and cheered in the forest. So after bukit timah hill we hiked back to campsite for dinner. The journey took longer than the time which was set. Reached campsite at 10pm and did stretching first if not we won't be able to move on the next day.. So after that was the super late dinner. So after that was tying water bombs. Had debrief and slept later at around 3plus am.

Day 3 was allowed to wake up later. It was generally games. Relay challenge, Bravo did a good job. It's when trainees morale were being brought up by cheers and all. Lunch and it was games again. After lunch's game was nice and fun. Instructors formed a Golf Platoon. LOL! Played with cadets, stepping on their ballon and all. And Golf acting as cadets playing games which advance planned. It was fun. Then it was water bomb. Didn't got wet as we dodged. Wanted to go home at 5pm but dragged until 11pm. And I even thought of not leaving because the atmosphere was high and I really enjoyed. Cabbed home and I turned shagged during the journey.

It's the last day of November now, and we're approaching the last month of 2010 real soon. The year really passes damn quickly.

2010-11-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

Here come the Busy November reporting to me.

Oh so busy November!

2010-10-20T22:24:00.001+08:00

It's 20.10.2010 today!

2010-10-19T20:39:00.001+08:00

School started for exactly 1 week today.

2010-10-06T15:54:00.003+08:00

I felt blessed. I love my mummy!

Results were out just now. GPA 3.00. Quite bad for me.
Overall grade which is combination of UT1, 2 and daily grades was like this:

Cognitive : B
Science : B
Maths : B
Communication : C+
Enterprise : B+

Guess my grade for communication got drag down because of UT1 and UT3 grades. Should be the markers issue again.
GPA will be higher if my ut3 grades were better.
I called mummy and told her I know my GPA. She spoke english with me. Telling me that it's very good already, I'm happy. Now only sem 1 got sem 2 and pull up your grades higher. You tried your best.

2010-10-04T12:59:00.003+08:00

021010

Went to dad's dinner and dance at Swissotel.

Only reach home at 2 plus going to 3am on Sunday midnight.

As I was saying, September had already ended.

September was a shag month for me.

October is a fall sick month for me.

Just the start of october, I'm already having the symptoms of flu. Nice one.

It's the last week of my 2 months holidays already.

Results and class should be out by this week.

School opens means back to wake up at 6am, leave home at 7.10am, walk to chinese garden and train to woodlands, walk into RP and set up laptop, ready for lesson at 8.30am, read the day's problem, do PDT, do worksheet, break at 9.30am, lesson continues 10.15, lunch and chiong ppt at 11am - 1.30pm, do presentation, 6ps and train home, do RJ, sleep. This cycle will continues everyday.

2010-10-01T22:41:00.002+08:00

It's OCTOBER!
Happy Childrens' Day to all children!
I'm my parent's children. So it's also my day. LOL!

Poly life = No life.
No youth day, no children day. Then what day?

Anyway, it's october already. September had already ended.
No more duties on my shoulder. Relieved.
Pass over to Chuthing already :D

I just came across this word, outfield. Made me thought of this person.

I miss your care and concern!

2010-09-28T23:14:00.004+08:00

270910

Zoo with Miao Hui, Amanda, Darika! Advance celebration for Amanda's 17th birthday.

Had fun. Walked from 10.30am to 6.30pm. A whole day spent in the zoo. Caught 2 of their shows. Animals were cute:) It was fun with this people around. However, it drizzled and rained. Walked in the rain. Had my first ever Koi at Amk.

2010-09-26T10:16:00.006+08:00

It was at the end of August when I took up this project.

Being the officer in charge for footdrill competition. This means I'm the officer in charge for the whole of september.

September is ending soon.

When I took the project, I was told that this competition is a crucial one as we are left with this to earn a perfect score in order to achieve gold for the CAA award. In between, I was told to take care of the morale of the cadets. Morale versus Perfect score. Which one? It's quite difficult to juggle between this two.

I planned out the teams. I didn't take the advices because believed in what I see. I regretted now that I didn't take the advices which were given to me. Thus, the perfect score target wasn't achieve. No sense of achievement and was quite guilty.

Trainings wise, it was my first time planning, I miss out thinking of the welfare of the cadets and initially planned to have training consecutively for almost everyday. Advice was given and there's only less than a week of training if added together. I take training very seriously. I want progress to be fast. I'm strict and demand for things. Put in efforts and come down every training. Even the extra training. I still rushed down right from school immediately after my exams for trainings. I wasn't late for a single training except for 1 when I have my exam on. I missed having fun after exams with friends and rush back for training. Yet, I gotten negative comments. Quite demoralizing. Despite of feeling not appreciated, I still continue. I'm responsible for this project. I see improvement through the trainings alittle on discipline. I thank all instructors and officers who took their time of to help and train them for the footdrill competition.

I find ourselves very pathetic. Pathetic until when we experienced wet weather, we have no where to train. We only can train in classrooms. This really made the progress to slower down.

I wished that school have bigger grounds for us when meet with wet weather, but I guess it cannot be fulfilled.

The night before competition, I can't sleep despite going through a day of tiring training and reach home late, lying on bed at 12.40mn with tiredness, but I can't really fall into sleep. It's something which I didn't experience ever since my last competition, about 2-3years back.

On the competition day, I was quite ok. Rushing for you guys to test court, be ready and adjust all of your uniforms. Getting you guys to be ready for the first parade and all. First group was sec2s' nursing. Looked at them and my heart was almost thumping out when there's an extra move. Yea, that uneasy feeling.

After seeing sec1s teams, I feel this way. Feeling that it's my responsiblity (which actually is) to make sure that they are up to the standard to go to the competition. Not sending unprepared teams to the competition to waste the judges' and everyone's time. Not to let everyone to see the joke.

Looked at each of our own teams performing, I can only say that the result will reflect on the amount of efforts being put in. If you put in your no limits of efforts, you will sure get the results you want. If you have put in limited amount of effort, then you will get the limited amount of result.

At the end of the day, I was told, let this be the starting point and take today as a lesson learnt. It's right. Let this be a lesson gained. Though the expectations weren't met, but I hope each and everyone had brought home something meaningful which was gained from the lesson today.

Sai cheong was the commander. Despite the wrong direction or commands is given or done, he never surrender to the difficulties and looked down to think of solutions to make sure the team end the whole format. Though you reached the time, but judge decided to give you time to complete because judge believed that you can do it. It's the determination, courage and perseverance which he had but not us. From today onwards, when meet with difficulties, do think about the incident today.

I admit that at first, I started off with high expectations and hopes. However, when the date is nearing, I knew my expectations can't be met. I learnt that the greater you expect or hope, the greater your disappointment. Though at points of time, I don't feel appreciated and don't feel the sense of achievement after the competition, I think this 2 weeks are fruitful. Though at the end of the competition, no one thank me, but I hoped, you all did gained something through the process. I seen some grown alittle, and improved.

To all, You may have lose but you should have gained a beneficial lesson. Competition is once to me to win the glory and pride. But to me now, Competition is not about winning or losing the positions. Is about the process which all of you had been through, grow and excel. If you have decided to give up, you have decided to fail, to lose.

Ps: Post wasn't in order I guess. Broken parts.

2010-09-21T10:43:00.003+08:00

180910
Lantern festival outing at West coast park with Sj peeps. I'm the chairwoman. hahaha! Didn't went barrage because sec3s got their tuition which end quite late and they may not have the time to play when the reach barrage. So settle at west coast park.

As planned, everyone have to bring their own lantern and tea for the activity at night.. Meet Chuthing in the afternoon and went over to giant to get some tidbits, sparkles and candles. Candles there were out of stock. So rushed over to NTUC to get some. Luckily, there was plenty over there. Meet the rest and took bus there.

Got a spot and settle down. Waited for the children to settle down to fly their kites and Chuthing, Yongthai and myself went over to the hawker centre for food. Went back after food and rest for awhile. Very quickly, the night fall. Sky darken. Took their orders for mac and help them to buy back. While they were having their dinner, officers started to play with our lanterns. It’s like finally after so long I hold a proper candle lantern. Had fun. While everyone was busy playing with their candles and sparkles, we went to get ready for the birthday surprise. Success?

After the surprise, we sat down together, admire the stars and the ¾ moon while drinking our tea and eating the moon cake. Finish the remaining candles and sparkles and pack up.

Left at 10 plus pm.
Home sweet home~

2010-09-16T16:13:00.002+08:00

Gotten my july's pay like finally.
Holidays are just so boring. There's nothing to do at home.
Brother just switch on the television and there's this show airing.
我的岳母是巫婆. Nice show! Baba lala baba lala ba lala. HAHA! That was what I used to say when watching this show when I was young.

I had a really weird dream last night.
I guess I thought too much about inception. LOL!
hahaha.

I'm going to run later in the evening.

There's a hole in my heart that can only be filled by you, and this hole in my heart can't be filled with the things I do. Hole hearted~ Hole hearted~~

2010-09-16T10:39:00.003+08:00

I was being put in a difficult position yesterday.
What is my priority? Perfect score or morale?

I'd really want to try to let everyone to be happy, but another thing, which is the perfect score is bothering me. I was given the choice, to gamble or to motivate. I feared to fail, I choose not to gamble. The risk and its consequences are too huge for me to take it. I don't want any disappointment. I grumbled. Why when other people was in charge, there seemed to be no troubles or problems, and why when I was in charge, there's always lots of troubles and problems? I gotten a reply that says, 'You don't know what they face behind.' It's true.

Now, Can we work hard together and win the war?

2010-09-14T16:37:00.007+08:00

I was clearing things on my table and came to this post it which I wrote to motivation myself for O Level. "What is your standard?" was written on that piece of post it. This made me remind myself on what is my standard? Does my standard ends at a C6 or A1? Does my standards end me up at a poly or ite? etc.

This phrase, 'what is your standard?', I learnt it from officer course 2009.

Now, I'm going to use this on my cadets who are going for the footdrill competition on next saturday.

Cadets, let me now ask you, What is your standard?

Just getting qualified for 2nd and 3rd or for the champion?

Just having zero coordination or with full coordination?

Just go for the sake of going or go to earn your glory, your pride?

Just train for the sake of training or train to be perfect?

Is your standard just a 50% or a 100%?

What is your standard guys?

I don't wish you guys to self fulfil yourself. Don't self fulfil that your competitors are more powerful than you and set the mind that you will lose to them. There's no such things. You can make things happen.

I strongly believed that success isn't something that you can wish for but to work hard for.

I believe that you guys can make it, to do the school proud and bring back glory.

2010-09-13T10:10:00.000+08:00

Yo peeps!
Am blogging via my phone.
On the way to school for last paper now!
I do want to go and enjoy lunch with friends after paper, but sadly, I've to be responsible and rush back to school for training..

2010-09-12T14:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY!

It's had been a year already! 120909 the day we got commissioned as an officer!
Remember the excitement, joy, happiness we had that day.
And the tiredness.
Been through not much for this one year.
Started training teams for first aid competition isn't easy.
Planning and organising a basic first aid course isn't that easy.
Now, training and coordinating teams for footdrill competitons is really not easy.

But I remembered, I must overcome challenges with
courage and zeal.

The officer pledge :

I'm an officer of St. John Ambulance Brigade.
I will uphold the motto of the order,
'For the faith' and 'For the service of mankind'.
I lead by example,
and regard everyone with respect and huminity.
I must take ownership in all duties
and perform with pride and intergrity.
I overcome challenges with
courage and zeal.
I will be faithful and serve with dignity to the Brigade.

2010-09-11T13:31:00.003+08:00

I'm a Happy girl!
hahaha!

Why am I happy?
Because.. Had breakfast with mummy and brother at mac this morning. Walk around the wet market together, bought some things, and walk home together. hehe.
Changed bed sheet.
Accompany mummy to clinic to get her jab. It's for her Sunday job. Then went over to post office to enquire about renewal of passport things, lunch at market with mummy and brother again and home now.
I'm going to get my passport done after my exams.

Not really well. Sore throat since I don't know how long ago with one ulcer. Ulcer 2 and 3 is popping out soon. Got to suck my lozenges.

Well, was rather demoralized yesterday.
It's the fact that when I come, it isn't fun?
Excuse me, your competition is just 2 weeks away, it's for your own sake. You go there with this kind of standard, you are going to throw your own face, not mine. This is fact. I made the effort to rush down from school immdiately after my exams, and this is what I got. How nice.
I won't be credited even if you guys get any prize. It's your glory, your pride after all. With this kind of attitude, I don't think you can get it. I see potential in the team, but it's the effort which you guys put in. Don't be so naive. Grow up, you're no longer in primary school. I wish you guys all the best.

2010-09-05T12:20:00.002+08:00

It's Sunday again.
That's how time passes.
And tomorrow, UT3 officially starts. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday exams.

There's AGI today. I'm not going due to exam tomorrow. It's raining and the field comfirm will be muddy. Good luck people. haha.

Went to get breakfast this morning. Reach down stairs and waited for the lift for quite sometime. Still the lift is stuck at 10th floor. Not moving down despite the arrow was pointing down. The first thought which came to my mind was that children again. So, this is the disadvantage of having only a lift at each section. Walked to the other side to take a lift up as I was staying at the 9th storey and the lift is linked. Reach and the lift is still stuck. Immdiately I opened the door and put down the breakfast and climb up the stairs. What I guess was right. That boy was pressing and holding on the lift while waiting for his grandmother to go to church I guess. Because of this SELFISH act, not only me, the other 2 neighbors who are waiting for the lift are also affected. This is not the first time. Don't think that the lift belong to only you and don't act atas infront of people when you are always shouting and scolding your maid early in the morning, and also canning, scolding, shouting at your children all day long. I felt damn pissed when I can hear how you teach your son maths during the evening. Everytime, when you light the clothes at outside, it's always dripping. Can you be more considerate and be less selfish and think of your neighbors living below you?! Think of yourselves before making comments about others. Inconsiderate family! One more time, I'm going to confront you straight!

2010-09-01T10:57:00.004+08:00

It's September 1 already.
How fast can time pass?

UT3 is next week.
Footdrill competition in 24days time.

I left my twitter on for my BB last night and felt asleep without signing out until I woke up suddenly at 4.09am! Will my 1GB of data be gone like this?

Again today, Mummy called.
She said '我的乖女儿, 有在读书吗?'
hahaha! What can I say?

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Huizhen born in AUGUST

Loves to joke.
Attractive.
Suave and caring.
Brave and fearless.
Firm and has leadership qualities.
Knows how to console others.
Too generous and egoistic.
Takes high pride of oneself.
Thirsty for praises.
Extraordinary spirit.
Easily angered.
Angry when provoked.
Easily jealous.
Observant.
Careful and cautious.
Thinks quickly.
Independent thoughts.
Loves to lead and to be led.
Loves to dream.
Talented in the arts, music and defense.
Sensitive but not petty.
Poor resistance against illnesses.
Learns to relax.
Hasty and trusty.
Romantic.
Loving and caring.
Loves to make friends .

2010-08-31T23:24:00.002+08:00

Morning, Mummy called.

Mummy: ' 在做什么?'
Me: ' 在看戏'
Mummy: '可以不要每一次我打来你都在看戏吗? 可以讲你在读书吗?'
Me: 'Ok. Mummy, 你再打来多一次.'
Mummy: '我才不要.'

LOL!

Night, I walked into the kitchen to get some candies.

Me: 'Mummy, 我在读书leh.'
Mummy: '这样就对咯, 我的乖女儿.'

hahahahaha!

2010-08-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

56 mins early.

Happy Teachers' Day!

It's teachers' day celebration today for schools. I didn't go back to school, I stayed at home.

Ever since I graduated from primary school, I didn't go back to visit. My teachers had all left already. Then I graduated from secondary school, i didn't go back to visit, cause I can still see the teachers when I'm back to St. John. Yeap.

Parents said my brother is better. Ever since he graduated from kindergarden, he still go back once in a while to visit and see the teachers. I didn't.

This is me. I don't like to do such things. haha.

2010-08-23T23:56:00.003+08:00

Celebrated my Lunar Birthday today.
Lunar birthday means I'm 19..

Photos up soon :)

Here.

8 August 2010.

Meet up with my dears. Chuthing and Annnee.

Went walk around at FEP, then to Plaza Sing for dinner at XinWang.

Make a membership there.

No Group photos, so I combine the 3 of us together :)

Thank you my dears.

Appreciate that both of you took your time off to celebrate my birthday in advance for me.

Book ticket the day before.
Aftershock. Nice movie, touching.
After the movie, it was already 12.15mn if I'm not wrong. Wanted to train home, but when we reached the station, it was broadcast that the last train had already left. Rushed to the bus stop, waited for the $4 bus ride home. Night Rider. But it's better than taking a cab.

This was taken sometime back. TRCC gang. haha! With some people not inside.

This is the full gang. (Y) On 12 August 2010, Darika, Jannica, Miaohui, Sky, Zen, and the guys surprised me.
Though I knew what are they going to do, it was quite obvious though, but Thank you for your effortsss! Appreciated it.
Then made a video for me. It's in FB.

At night, Papa brought us for zi char dinner. Chai por Hor fun. haha!

Thank you! (L)

On 23 August 2010, it's my lunar birthday.

On the Lunar 7th month 14th.

Birthday meal, Red egg, pig's kidney and lung mee sua. :)

It's never failed for the past 18 years of my life that Mummy will cut the egg for me and say something while cutting the egg open.

Yeap, as on the actual day of my birthday, we were too full for cake. So cut cake on my lunar birthday.
My spongebob 18th Birthday cake.
After so many years, I can finally again have so many candles on my cake.
(When buying the cake, Mummy asked how many candles you want? I want 18! hahaha!)
Wish granted. 18 candles! My cake shine bright bright!
Loves. I'm 18!

2010-08-16T18:11:00.001+08:00

Holiday started!

2010-08-12T00:01:00.001+08:00

Happy 18th Birthday, Hui Zhen!

2010-08-09T23:05:00.001+08:00

Happy 45th Birthday, Singapore!

2010-08-03T08:46:00.006+08:00

Inception-ed with girls. Continuous 2 movie Friday with girls. It's a nice movie! Arthur is hot!

hahaha! It's a nice movie when they actually when into 4 layer of dreams to plant an idea and also to steal information of the rich guy subconsciously. In the end, what do you think? Did Dom Cobb come back to reality? I guess so. It's a well done movie.

Inception:

'Dom Cobb is a skilled thief, the absolute best in the dangerous art of extraction, stealing valuable secrets from deep within the subconscious during the dream state, when the mind is at its most vulnerable. Cobb's rare ability has made him a coveted player in this treacherous new world of corporate espionage, but it has also made him an international fugitive and cost him everything he has ever loved. Now Cobb is being offered a chance at redemption. One last job could give him his life back but only if he can accomplish the impossible-inception. Instead of the perfect heist, Cobb and his team of specialists have to pull off the reverse: their task is not to steal an idea but to plant one. If they succeed, it could be the perfect crime. But no amount of careful planning or expertise can prepare the team for the dangerous enemy that seems to predict their every move. An enemy that only Cobb could have seen coming.'

Source from (http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1375666/plotsummary)

Sunday woke up at 4.30am in the morning for new moon big walk volunteering. Took a cab to pasir ris in the morning which costed me $32.70. Because mummy is rushing, and the strong wind and rain is really scary! During the journey, I was so scared that the trees along the highway will collapse. LOL! Anyway, reached there before 6am. And after registration, went to the tentage. Sudden strong wind followed by heavy rain. The wind was strong enough to blow away 2 tentage. The 2 tentage was being uprooted. Scary~

Not long after the second tentage was blown away, the lights at the main tentage was being cut off. Probably due to the strong wind. The whole tentage was also shaking. Safety was threaten. hahahaha! Bare footed to whitesand, wash leg, wear back shoe and settle at mac. Was being call back not long after. Saw Jeanette Aw and Fann Wong. haha. I was giving away donuts.

Went to bought a new pair of slipper after the event. Shoe was wet and cover with mud. The guys from E24C waited for me. Chatted and went our own way later. Went to bugis to shop. Bought apple strudel and ate pon tian wanton noodle which satisfied my crave. Train back and mummy called me when I reach Chinese garden. She left something at her workplace. Took bus and got it for her.

Decided not to go grandma house as it will be too rush for us. Because papa's flight arrive at 6pm. So slacked at home, and I bathe, and wash my shoe. Time was just nice after all these. I wanted to nap for awhile, but it's too late. Changed and off to airport! Mummy drive. Papa's flight was delayed, I supposed. So it's the first time mummy suggest to take the sky train to T2 to grab a bite there. Usually, she will say that it's troublesome. hahaha! So snack at burger king. It was cold, ordered hot tea! hahahaha!

Papa's friend treat at pasir panjang. BBQ stingray, kang kong, shell fish, hum, chicken wing, rojak. Full ttm. hahaah! I'm paiseh also. Decided to go to grandma house at 9pm to pass them 豆沙并. It's sambal one. Sit for 30mins and off. I didn't nap at all. I started to stone at that time already. LOL! Reached home, KO-ed! hahaha!

2010-07-26T14:56:00.002+08:00

Went grandma's house yesterday. It's like I only go 1 or 2 times after a month since I work.
Took a bus in to Senja Grand. Cause I was complaining to mummy that the whether is so so hot!
Conincidentally, we took the same bus as Miss Lim! My kindergarden teacher. hahaha! It was like so long since we last met. 12 years since i graduated from kindergarden... Sounds so old for me..... I'm still not 18! hahah!

2010-07-25T12:13:00.002+08:00

On one nothing better to do sunday morning, I went to dig out my baby photo albums.
Look at my baby photos and I look so cute and chubby! hahaha!
On another nothing better to do day, I shall go scan and upload.

2010-07-24T23:01:00.005+08:00

Formal for Friday. Friday is usually the casual day. For E24C, Communication module falls on Friday, so it's formal for lesson 13! It's lesson 13 already, 2 more weeks, 2 MORE WEEKS! Semester 1 will be over. Time passes so fast right?! I'm in poly for 3 months plus already! haha!

That was my team for formal.

After lesson, went to causeway point with these 3 girls namely, Miao Hui, Darika and Jannica for a movie and dinner. Last minute decision in class on whether to go for a movie or not. First was despicable me, then inception. Later, Jannica saw the advertisement, and decided to watch The Crazies. Went to value $ to get tidbits and drinks, then went up to the cinema in our formal wear. Watching movie in formal! haha! Prepared that the movie is going to be scary, gross and disgusting as I saw the thriller while queene-ing for tickets.

Overall, the movie was some thing like zombie thing. The whole town got infected by the zombie virus because some people want to control the population of the town so they when inserting virus to the people and in the end, it was out of control...LOL! The movie was somewhat similar to I'm Legend. Sacrificing and all. 1/2 of the time of the movie, I was either covering my eyes with my hands or Darika's jacket, and Miao hui was crapping throughout 3/4 of the movie. I was so cold until I shivered. I didn't bring jacket.... Spent 1 hour to decide what to eat for dinner, then settled down at mac. Then ladies talk. Trained home with Jannica.

2010-07-19T21:54:00.005+08:00

Formal today. Look really weird.

I love this phrase: 'When you need me but don't want me, I will stay. When you don't need me but want me, I will leave.'
Did i mention before?? Watch Nanny McPhee about a month ago. I just loved what she said.

2010-07-06T15:29:00.000+08:00

Born on the 12th
You are a wise person known for your humility. You are dedicated and sincere in your studies/work. You are an emotional lover. You tend to get possessive in your relationships. Otherwise, you are an easy-going and friendly person. You love to dress well. You are realistic in the game of life.

2010-07-05T14:15:00.007+08:00

Because I miscount the time, I woke up late yesterday and I'm almost late for the event.

2010-07-03T18:46:00.002+08:00

Huizhen: 'Mummy, did i change from young to now?'
Mummy: 'Got lah.'
Huizhen: 'I became fatter right?'
Mummy:'Change to be a more mature person. Thinking is more mature. Know how to thing already. Not like last time so naughty.'

The past is what I really don't want to think of. Find that it's a disgrace.
The feelings was kept in my heart, I didn't tell anyone, but I blamed myself for being so silly.
The past shall be kept at the bottom-est of my heart forever.

2010-06-30T22:16:00.000+08:00

When we were in secondary school, we hoped to get out from secondary school faster. When we left secondary school to poly, we hoped to get back to the lifes in secondary school.

2010-06-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

Is it late or early to realize that June is coming to an end?
Times really passes so fast. It's like again for me to say these.
Updates about school again. School reopens 2 weeks ago.
During the holidays, I didn't really went out. SHL camp for 3D2N.
School reopens. Tired. Even sleeping at 9pm i still feel tired.
UT 1 results aren't good. UT 2 is coming and i must push it higher.

2010-06-28T21:18:00.006+08:00

Around 3 weeks ago, it's my first visit to vivo. Like after so long right?

Yea. I live under the rock.. Plan was to meet up with Annnee like after so long. The day didn't seem what I thought of. But it's still good. Movie at vivo for the first time. Bought toy story 3 combo and nacho. Nanny McPhee was a nice movie. Touching, funny. haha. Small c big P is what nanny mcphee said everytime she self intro. I love her phrase. "When you need me but don't want me, I will stay. When you don't need me but want me, I will leave."

2010-06-03T20:22:00.004+08:00

Hey!
It's JUNE!!!
Times passes really fast. School had already started for 1 and half months and i'm having 2 weeks of holidays now. 2 weeks seemed alittle less and time really passby fast!
3D2N shl camp next tuesday to thursday.

What have i been doing in the past 5 months??
January, February, March, April, May work. Breaks in between.
April 11, poly life started.

2010-05-27T14:20:00.002+08:00

It's the last day of school.
It's time to catch up some sleeps.